“Fox & Friends” host Ainsley Earhardt has opened up about the earth-shattering grief of experiencing a miscarriage at a time when she was desperate to start a family.
Speaking in a new faith-based film produced by “I Am Second,” Earhardt talks candidly about how she became a Christian at age 21, just before starting her career in the TV industry.
“I figured out that I needed to answer that knock on my door, which was God,” the TV personality explains.
Unsure of whether to give over complete control to the Lord, Earhardt says she felt that “if I let God into my life, I was going to have to give up things that are fun — that he wanted me to live a life that wasn’t fun.”
“Instead,” she says, “the fun began” when she committed her life to Christ.
“I asked God to come into my life and instantly he just poured blessings into my life,” she says.
It wasn’t long before the talented presenter got her dream job — as an anchor on Fox. A self-described “planner,” Ainsley did not intend on having kids until she had “achieved her successes.”
“I wanted to be able to live a comfortable life, I didn’t want to feel stressed about my finances,” she explains.
Then, as her career continued to take off, Ainsley felt like it was finally time to try and get pregnant. Unfortunately, disaster struck — Earhardt suffered a miscarriage.
In devastating detail, Ainsley recalls undergoing her final ultrasound scan.
“She puts the stuff on your stomach and runs that ultrasound. We saw the baby, and just like before we saw the heart. Then, she put the wand on that area and there was no heartbeat,” Earhardt shares.
“She tried and tried, and there was no heartbeat.”
“We had just prayed for a healthy baby,” Ainsley says through tears. “I didn’t want them to take [the baby] away from me. This was my child. I just thought, ‘I’m going to be separated from this baby until I go to heaven.”
“His plan is not my plan,” she notes. “His time frame is not my time frame.”
Despite having to go through this brutal season of grieving her lost child, Earhardt says she was convinced that God had a plan for the future.
“He was teaching me to be patient and to trust him. We had no choice,” she says.
Not long after, Ainsley found herself pregnant once again.
“We were in shock, not expecting it at all,” the anchor explains in the video. “The doctor said everything is great, everything is perfect.”
In 2015, Hayden was born.
“I am just so glad to have a little girl,” Earhardt says. “We can travel together one day, we will shop together, I will plan her wedding!”
“This world is amazing and I’m so blessed,” she adds, “but this is not it!”
“I just know there is something better,” the anchor explains. “I know that women are hurting, that men are hurting — but you can get through it. It might not be your plan or what you want — but know that God has a plan and He works it all out.”
“Life is such a journey, but every step of it, good or bad, is still beautiful,” she says.