The pain is unimaginable, but her faith is strong enough to stand it.
Sandy Brown had to watch through a car window last week as her 59 year-old husband Freddie Jr. and 20-year-old son Freddie III were buried after losing their respective battles to the novel coronavirus.
She was able to go to their graveside — alone.
Brown, who buried her loved ones on Good Friday, streamed the service on her personal Facebook account. Her husband and son died three days apart from one another: the elder Freddie on March 26, and the younger on March 29.
She told The Detroit News that there’s “not even a word” to describe the pain she has experienced since losing her family. “It’s unimaginable,” she said.
Having to bury them in solitude, Brown said, “seems so unfair.” Her husband and young son were not able to have a “proper burial” due to the restrictions in place because of the pandemic that claimed their lives.
Freddie III was supposed to play on Michigan State University football team. On Thursday of last week, Brown received her son’s would-be jersey.
One of the most difficult parts of this grieving process for Brown is that she can be near no one. There’s “nobody to hug,” she told WEYI-TV.
But even amid all the horror of her loss, Brown is still finding faith.
“Medical science says I should be traumatized,” she said. “I had a traumatic experience twice. I should be banging my head against the wall. But God said no. I’m standing here in the strength of the Lord, not strength of my own. God has got me.”